Thank you!

I wanted to write this entry as a thank you to all of you who have helped me.

M&M – you are wonderful IFs. I am so excited to be a part of this journey with you. I cannot wait to make you daddies. I know a lot of surrogacy is trust – both ways. I want to let you know that you can trust me. I will do everything I can to grow your baby(ies) to be healthy and happy. I can already imagine what a wonderful, amazing experience it is going to be the day your little one enters the world. When you get to hold YOUR baby for the first time. I get all choked up just thinking about it.

Paul – I couldn’t ask for a better husband. You have never questioned me through this whole journey. You have never once worried about my ability to do this – you just know if it’s what I want to do, I am going to do it and you’ve been supportive through it all. Thank you. Thank you for giving me my shots, thank you for being my rock, thank you for loving me the way you do.

My mom – thank you for listening to me. I know you don’t fully understand this whole journey but you’ve been there anyway. I appreciate the ear you lend to me almost every night. And thank you so very much for being so positive. While others use the word ‘if’, you’ve used the word ‘when’ and that makes such a huge difference.

To my friends at SMO – thank you for guiding me. If it weren’t for you, I would have been lost MANY times. I’m sure as my journey unfolds you will be there to support me even more than you already have, and for that I am thankful. And a special thank you to my secret sister – you brighten my life in such a huge way. And it’s not so much the gifts as it is knowing someone is thinking about me. <3

To my friends from IM – thank you for checking up on me. It makes me feel so special every time I get an email from one of you asking how I’m doing, how my journey is going, and wishing me luck. You have no idea how much all of you have touched my life. I’m sorry for not being there – I’m sorry for some of the decisions I’ve made – I’m sorry if I hurt ANY of you. I love you all.

And last but not least, Shayla – thank you baby for being the wonderful little person you are. Every time I look at you I remember why I started this journey. I know the joy of getting that baby that you’ve longed for and I want to help someone else get that feeling. You are an amazing little girl and I cherish you.